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It has been hard keeping you all in the dark, but I have a confession. We are expecting a new *human* addition in October 2020 if all continues healthily on. I know we are in a high-risk range, my doctors have informed me that I fall into both the elderly and geriatric pregnancy category which makes a girl feel oh so warm and fuzzy inside. I realize Brett and I are very fortunate that things have gone fairly smoothly for us up until this point, but damn has it been hard guys! .. .. Do you realize that I have been talking about my intermittent fasting protocol, and the 5am club for weeks?!! Meanwhile I could barely get out of bed, let alone get up for my regular gratitude practice and yoga routine?! Thank goodness, I am getting closer to feeling like myself again. Anyone remember Live No. 08 Some days it’s ok not to feel #blessed? I wasn’t even a little bit close to feeling ok at that time, physically or mentally due to this pregnancy. .. .. I don’t want to sit here and be the big “pregnancy is so hard” complainer, because I know that I have had it reeaaallly easy in comparison to some of my girls, but the truth is I’ve had some hard moments. Moments that made me question who I am. I mean, I have heard, and am acutely aware of the post-partum components to starting my family, but I had no idea it was going to hit me so hard this early on. One day I actually said to Brett “I’m broken”, while crying my eyeballs out.. I had lost my motivation, I couldn’t or didn’t want to get out of bed in the morning, I was exhausted in spite of sleeping far more than my regular 7 hours per night, and I thought “is this me now? What the hell am I going to do?” Scary stuff, it really is, when not only do you not recognize yourself in the mirror, but you have also lost yourself on the inside too. .. .. Continued on Facebook @CatWhitecloud. Xo. .. .. .. .. .. @mbjohnson15 .. .. #whitelies #astruggle #confessiontime #intermittentfasting #mentalhealth #healthandwellness #omad #pcos #bestandworst #bewell #fourteenweeks #earlypregnancy #postpartum #keepmoving #lifenotstyle #matandpage