Image post

10 Weeks today. App says baby is as big as a strawberry 🍓 I couldn’t decide if we should take this photo or not since unfortunately I’ve just had some spotting. But I decided to do it anyway because right now, I’m pregnant. I don’t know if the baby really is as big as a strawberry. They could have stopped growing. I don’t know if I’ll get to take another sweet photo like this next week. Miscarriage steals the joy of pregnancy. At my ultrasound at 7w3d everything looked great. They did tell me that I had a small subchorionic hemorrhage and I may see some light spotting but I also may not. I chose to believe the latter because I knew even the tiniest hint of blood would send me into a tailspin. I spoke to a doctor after hours tonight and described exactly what’s going on and she was very reassuring. She told me she honestly thinks that’s what’s causing the bleeding and that baby is fine. But all I can do is wait and see, unless I want to spend my evening in the ER. We’re also currently experiencing the largest winter storm we’ve had this year so I can only imagine what the ER would be like right now. I have an appointment Monday morning already. Right now, I’m refusing to accept this as another loss. I’m not giving up yet. I’ve said all along in this pregnancy that this baby is a fighter and I truly believe that with my whole heart. So tonight I’ll be drinking tea, watching trash on TV, and trying to override my urge to panic. Please hang on little one. I want to meet you so badly, but not yet.